Tanya (Ex-Girlfriend)
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Tanya was Greg's ex-girlfriend from his teenage years. He stated many times that she was the first person he ever fell in love with. His relationship with her was very important to him and he would often talk about it on his websites, even after he became married to Skye. It is not exactly known when they dated.
All of the information on this page is 100% from Greg's own words.
Greg's Description of Tanya
On a 2005 archived version of his Onision site, Greg described Tanya as "A young lady I was once in love with... today I've seemed to find myself pushed further and more so away from her... though I was almost always enlightened by talking with her... I just find myself... distant... like it's all a faded memory." (Source)
Early Relationship
Greg estimates he met Tanya in 2001. She lived across the creek from his grandma's house. He claims they met at a "celebrative gathering", although she says she never even attended. Hee noticed her "amazing glow" and her optimism. They did not speak a lot there because he was too preoccupied with telling a relative that was critical of his clothing choice that he would bury their face in the ground.
According to Greg, the next time he saw her was Christmas. They talked and he made her laugh and giggle. He could not stop smiling. They went outside and stared at the sky together, talking about random things.
Dating
Although he never officially asked her out, he and Tanya began dating. Greg would beg his mom to take him to visit his grandma so he could cross the creek to visit Tanya.
Obsession
Greg expressed, even when writing about this past experience in 2004 and 2008, a very strange obsession with Tanya. He says he was addicted to her voice and presence and he was always desperate to see her. This is something he still expressed in 2004, despite being engaged to Skye.
Greg says while dating her, his "purpose was becoming her". He would often talk to her about their future, but she did not seem to reciprocate these thoughts.
She began calling him less and he described this time period as a mess.
Break-Up
Tanya broke up with Greg. He says she was the only person that he loved that had broken up with him.
At first, Tanya would continue to talk to Greg after their break-up. She would tell him there are other girls out there for him out there. He would always reply telling her she was the only person that fit him, she was the most amazing person he ever met, and she would be his last (a term he used at the time to describe a lasting marriage).
Post Break-Up
Greg says he cried at night often after they stopped talking. In 2004, he described this as "my entire life took a fall for one of the worst points I had ever experienced."
The only way he knew how to recover from the break-up was to make her the bad guy. He convinced himself she was wrong for him all along. He also convinced himself that she treated him wrongly and she could not care about anyone, as if she had no soul. He says he was not trying to degrade her, but to save himself from heart-ache.
It took him 6 months to begin to find other girls attractive again and longer to want to start dating again. He says it was a daily challenge not to call or email her.
A year after the relationship ended, Greg decided to call Tanya. She was happy he called and they began talking again.
Websites
There are traces of Tanya throughout Greg's pre-success websites.
2002 Song
On Greg's 2002 Death Reaper website, he had a downloadable song titled "Tanya". This song can still be downloaded off the archived version of the website. (Source)
2004 Account
Sometime in 2004 to 2005, Greg wrote about Tanya in the Gregory J. Danial version of his Onision site on his "A Life's Story" page. (Source) On the site, he accounts important eenta and relationships he had throughout his life. He says he feels like he and Tanya have lost touch.
2008 Blog Post
On February 21, 2008, Greg was inspired by a dream he had to write a long blog post to Tanya titled, "Tanya [...] - Gregory Misses You Terribly". (Source)